Its the end of day 6 of the brick work and mortar repair, its amazing to be up on a lift and doing such needed work. After 12 hours of work, most of it just standing in a cramped lift- its amazing how odd your legs feel. I'm tired. And what's worse, the devil has been bringing up past sins and making me feel useless!! Why? I don't know, but he is the accuser isn't he? He is the liar and the thief. I really felt as if I was under some spiritual attack. So now I lay on my bed and pray. God, I need you, I need your truth so I can see right. I don't want my heart to hurt because of the accusers schemes. Build me up and train me in your ways, please defeat this battle that rages against all that I am, I'm tired, and don't believe anything the accuser is saying. I love You God, and its to you that my heart bends its knees. I love you Father
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Flight

You know, its not fun to pack up, forget stuff, miss a connecting flight, sleep in the airport, remember more stuff you forgot, and then try to stay happy on the ride home on the morning flight... But I know God is in control, and its not my job to complain or try to fix anything more than I have. All I can do is smile and say Thank you God for making me.

Part of me was beating myself up inside saying "Grow up" but another part was saying "Thank God for who you are" it was a very interesting mix of emotions, especially when I was processing them and crying while in a bathroom stall.

But God forgives, God loves, and even when we let others down because of our mistakes- God still loves us with a love beyond our understanding. Even though I'm sitting alone on this plane, I can feel Gods presence.

Thank you God for making me, and helping me when I feel alone and make mistakes. You make me joyful when everything else feels like a mistake. Its your timing God, and the knees of my heart will only bow to you. Thank you God for all you do in the lives of the team I'm with. I love you God.
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